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The source of my problems...

I dont know how should i put this, but ill might consider this to be some sort of a personal update, although its just something that i just realised based on my past and current events. Yes, one more time, i dug into my past trying to answer those questions on why everything happened the way it did, what triggered, how and why it happened... And although it seems to be just a matter of inner meditation, psychology or even phylosophy, no matter how much i gather and reflect on that sudden unwelcomed change, theres just something missing, since the unrest i feel is not yet quenched...


Ive been noticing some patterns lately when reading the astrals, finding some connecting factors for my day-to-day basis in order to get a bit of understanding how the astrals exactly affects one, or one certain group of people linked with one another. Although its not considered to be an "exact science", because whatever "coicidences" involved has no logical scientific base, but either had the modern calendar system when it was first adopted, or (now trendy) alternative medicines that has been proven to work better than normalized ones, and silencing the pharmaceutical industry on that matter... because we're living in the "Modern Inquisition" era, where everyone that accepts anything other than "normalised logic science" is insane... although it still boggles my mind how can planetary positioning, and we're talking about floating rocks in space, affect organic life on this planet in specific... its beyond my understanding, but we only know a very, very small portion of our solar system, let alone the universe. But astral reading in specific has been impressing me alot, yet people often say that answers dont fall from the sky, and ironicly, thats where ive been finding mine lately, just like how Fernando Pessoa, a famous portuguese writer, did when he needed to find his, predicting the exact period he would die throught astral reading, as in January to March 1935, but he died only in November 1935, when he mistaken a simple number on that prediction, as proven by the astrologyst Paulo Cardoso, when he remade Fernando Pessoa's astral charts, correcting his death period predictions, that end up matching exactly to November 1935, the time of his death.


Although it might not give me clear answers just yet, because im still pretty much a starter at astral reading, it helps me deal with the daily events and what pattern do they associate to. It gives me a kind of security i cannot explain, a head start to prepare myself beforehand, and whats the best days to do whatever its ment to be doing... in other words, its eases my daily stress everytime i get out of bed and knowing how to react and to what, before whatever is destined to happen is about to happen. It might not be 100% reliable at times, but it has its certain hits once the message was decrypted, because certain influences from transitions happening might influence one another, changing their meanings... and its hard to keep track of them all for each specific case. And it was during the selection of certain long to short term transitions that i had to ignore one that i shouldnt have ignored in the first place... Pluto is in opposition with Chiron...


Now this might not mean much for those that are unfamiliar to astral reading like i previously was when i first ignored it, but this is a very powerful transition... and whats more interesting about it its that its been under effect since the time my nightmares first started, when my life turned upside down, almost 2 years ago... February 2013, bound to end in mid-December in this year... if only i knew at the time... I first considered this to be a coicidence, but after ive learned about this transition in specific, there was just more involved... and i had no more doubts.


I wont give out the full details to what Pluto and Chiron represents, as i would take a long time to make an explanation on both, and under what circunstances one represents a certain transition in this generation of Pluto, but lets say, Pluto represents the message or warning of an upcoming "end", in a very roughly sumarized explanation, and Chiron represents the impulse of sudden wisdom, and the suffering when we enter and end up victims of our very own conflicts, in other words, it wakes us up for what reality is all about, and it hits us hard when it does... because Chiron teaches us that some things cannot be fixed. So when Pluto has a transission with Chiron, its like having "The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly"... It certainly prevents us from being happy throughout this period, and at the same time, gathering great knowledge in exchange, and a sense of awakening. It might bring some sort of separation, an unwelcomed change, a revolution of mind, inner conflicts when one's true nature reflects upon themselves, suffering through an end, or an end to a suffering, illness, depression, or even death to some... It gives us a sense of awakening that we're not living in a fantasy world, showing us the true unfairness of Life.


And during those nearly 2 years, thats exactly the type of experiences ive been having... Pluto's transition with Chiron begun when my nightmare started, and the dream of the perfect life that i once had planed started to crumble with it, and was completely destroyed to a state that was unable to be fixed anymore... there was nothing i could do about it. I felt torned, betrayed and disapointed, lost someone i trusted and used to care about, tought about suicide, and during that horrible time i might have learned more about life and so many other things than i ever did during the time i used to be happy... It was some sort of equivalent exchange to get all that wisdom and knowledge, all for the trade of my own suffering... thats the message Pluto in oposition with Chiron has given me, so today i know i couldnt do anything about it... it was destined to be this way.


I know i couldnt just blame the positions of the planets on that, and calling it the source of my problems, i know people still gets skeptic about such "predictions", but even without the planets and their transitions, it wouldnt certainly prevent the events from happening. So i know i have my share of the guilt on those events, because transiting planetary aspects do not describe events. Events describe aspects. These aspects in turn reflect archetypal patterns which might, or might not manifest as events, in part depending on the choices of all those who are receptive or identified with to the pattern... And like i said before, although its not an "exact science", science still hasnt explained how gravity really works, yet we know it exists. People no longer questions the effects a certain Astral Sign has upon themselves when they are born, and astral reading is nothing more than an extent to that. Its just like how arithmetics and algebra is to one another...


But still, its only a month away untill this tiresome transition ends... ive suffered enough with great disapointments, lost alot, learned new things, and met new people, but i dont know what will happen after Pluto is no longer in opposition with Chiron... maybe i should go back stare to the sky and find those answers in the astrals... but still, its a relief to know why it had to be this way...

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